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IRENE CHEEN,




I'm eighteen, I wouldn't claim myself to be 'short' at 5"2.5 but I do wish to be taller sometimes. My greatest fear of life is being alone for too long & being around tight spaces(Claustrophobic). I am a crossed legged that loves cuddles, piggybacks, tea, foul words, animals, acid wash colours, music, ADTR, poetry, alone, horror, long walks, conversations, smell of rain, old books, random midnight roadtrips, James Frey, wolves, piercings, and FOOD.







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Sunday, March 20, 2011
Because, I miss


Abu dhabi, Arab.
Found the second picture from my old Myspace if you're wondering why am I so tiny.




Saturday, March 19, 2011
When you're the apple of my eye.

I was the kind of girl that would found to be alone without a partner and cry miserable over it, I was the kind who took the subject "alone" to be the subject of my life, I was the kind who would cry softly deep inside wanting to get out and ask for a partner to lend me a hand to fix the six drilled holes that was covered up in plasters and still, no wall shelf. I was the kind who ate instant noodles for breakfast or with an egg place on my plate of rice while watching the TV, alone. On most occasions, I would just be found wandering off wishing there was a partner in life and not to be alone, anymore or shop alone for myself.

Ever since you came, you just seemed to be like an addiction which I'm unable to kick off or let it ware off like how marijuana does, You're an addiction that would only stay longer and grow stronger. I know falling in love was always never part of the plan but I did & I'd dropped all my senses of being alone and picked up all the senses of not wanting to be alone, but to be with, you- just because I want to.

I'm confessing, within this 6 months, I am never more grateful to have anyone in my life that doesn't drives away from me but to only drive closer. I am also grateful that you've been here and you've saved the six drilled holes and made a wall shelf by only making me realize there's so much more to life than to sit about and wander my mind off in the past, you made me stronger somehow, somewhat to draw a closing line to my past and to never have me making myself trapped and drown in there. I no longer need to eat instant noodle nor the egg off from my plate alone, I've built to make a proper breakfast and have it with you while we watch the TV. I no longer need to shop alone for myself but to shop alone for you.

My emotions and I might drive me away from you, and I know you're tired. And sometimes I wondered if you ever wanted to leave me, but you said you wouldn't and the thing is, I believe what you say like how you would believe every words I say(making me realize I shouldn't have taken any advantages on you by saying things I don't mean/want to say because it hurts you). If this was 2 years ago with another man, I wouldn't have walked to him in the playground. I would have just given up. It doesn't matter if it was 2 years ago or now, with you - I would come to you in that playground and if you were to walk away from me, I would chase after you cause I know I couldn't lose you like how I could let others walk away from me. For the fact, tonight- you made me realize more than the times you ever did that how much I cannot do things my way all the time because in this relationship, I've promised we'll be one of 50 each to make us whole. You've given me the most faith, trust, hope, love more than anyone had within 6 months period of time. You walking away from me made it all clear for me, I want to thank you for loving me and never given up on me. I love you more than you could ever imagine, John.






Monday, March 7, 2011
I know it's a little late baby boy,

Note that I love you so much, though this turns out to be really bad. It's amazing how I see & talk to you everyday & I can never get enough of you. I love you John Lim Soon Lek, you got that? Text me if you do (: