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IRENE CHEEN,




I'm eighteen, I wouldn't claim myself to be 'short' at 5"2.5 but I do wish to be taller sometimes. My greatest fear of life is being alone for too long & being around tight spaces(Claustrophobic). I am a crossed legged that loves cuddles, piggybacks, tea, foul words, animals, acid wash colours, music, ADTR, poetry, alone, horror, long walks, conversations, smell of rain, old books, random midnight roadtrips, James Frey, wolves, piercings, and FOOD.







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Friday, December 31, 2010
One part of my resolution for year 2011


Fuck yes, please. I am either dying my whole head in the colour of Rubine, Rose Red or Plum. Or maybe I should just highlights. Turquoise, Flamingo Pink, Carnation Pink, Lilac, Cerse or maybe Pastel Pink? I don't know if my hair is able to buy the looks of those colour in order not to make me look like some Asian who is most probably trying too hard to be blondes. But fuck, maybe I'm one of them but but but yes you get the point, its either I'm getting some 'not-so-in-common-colours" or not going to get my hair dyed at all. So what is it going to be folks?




Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Drive me insane,

Got off an early kick start this morning, just after the sun rises I've gotten ready to follow John to Saujana. Still feeling unsure if I was really ready to rock climb, when I stepped onto the rocks, I was still feeling rather unsure if I was ready, but when I did not get to the top on my 3rd route(only, when John & his friends was like 100th times ahead of me) I felt like a failure. I really did, I'd even told John I don't deserve any kisses on the lips if I did not finish. Which, I did not but he'd still gave me kisses and told me I did fine for a first timer which he most probably as well told anyone who has rocked climbed for the first time just to make them feel better. RIGHT JOHN?! :P


So anyway,
this is The Bee, located at Jaya One Petaling Jaya.
You know that cafe where Yuna performed before she got famous? Yes there. Was there the day before for evening coffee with Michelle. Before that, John & I catched Gullivers Travels which was surprisingly a good movie.


This is Michelle, she's been my best friend since we were 10. We have awesome taste and you know why? we always end up wearing either the same clothes or colours. And I suggest you not to try what she is having in that photo, Horlicks Ice Cream.

She had her yucky ice cream with our Americano & Latte plus a very expensive plate of Potato & Bacon salad that tasted pretty much just lettuces.We only had one good photo because it isn't very light to camwhore with John's heavy camera. We'd like to use that vintage camera John gave me for Christmas only if we knew how to. Even after mutiples of times of being taught, I just keep forgetting. I think I even inserted the roll of films wrongly.



After sending Michelle home at late evening, John & I decided to head down to Ikea for dinner and to do some shopping. Later, I didn't feel very good, we decided to go to Winter Warmers for some hot tea. That's him right there, being sweet and all.





Sunday, December 26, 2010
We are who we are


When I stay home. Life's sad. So yesterday was Christmas. Harsh to say but it was one of the worst Christmas of my life. From having tea with John, my dad & his company to saving a lost dog to being at a place where I didn't want to, to the time I had the biggest argument with John so far. Nothing worked out the way it was planned to be.

Had last minute plan with Sulaiman & Johnathan to go for Shyam's Christmas party. They took over an hour to figure out who should come to pick me up & both of them ended up picking me up. Lost Sulaiman's phone & Zippo on the way, we had to search for it by the side of the road.


Then its was Sulaiman's drunk driving that freaked me out alot. Finally a better picture with Rabin at the end of the night things went back to the way it was with John. Hope tomorrow's a better day despite mother already ruined alot of today's.





Friday, December 24, 2010

This is such a lol-er. I hate vampires, yes I do. I'd like to do that to your Twilight books. Please let me help you. So yesterday was the day after my high school party. A pretty tiring day & trust me, I wasn't in smiles the whole day. Woke up by noon to get ready for one of the shits of my live.

This. Interviewed & had a photoshoot for Themez Magazine, off from cool. It was pretty lame, sorry but I'm just not into all this shits eh. John brought me to Curve after under the heavy rain for some lunch at Bubba Gump. Something to be happy about but,

This tasted like cough medicine. Fact number one, I hate medicine. Hence, you get my point. Had a rather annoying long ride back home feeling all annoyed due to the jam we were getting, 2hours to get home was just not cool.

"Run forest run."
Honestly, drinking section with John, Rabin, Lalit, Michelle, Balqis, Yasmin, Adrian, Melissa, Matthew & other few was even better than the party we had to attend an hour before it.



I love my boyfriend as much as I would give you a fucking PDA in your face. Guess who won prom queen & king? Yeah most probably you guessed it right if you were guessing on,
This two.
Oh yes, Happy Birthday Jesus & I'm stripping Yasmin down to her birthday suit tomorrow.




Tuesday, December 21, 2010
If your eyes were set green.



Heaven from the States.
Blogging at 4AM, with only my yellow dimped lamp turned on, on my desk, silent sneezing, I'm as happy to tell all, I am finally done with High School & my senior year. Despite the fact today started and ended horribly, it was worth every single bit of it (I suppose)

My 7th vein piercing. This time, with my mom's permission(like finally) All those hiding and running from mom always ends in a tragic. The real hell starts tomorrow, for that few hours and I'm done with everything. Just let tomorrow come & I'd be as happy as a child chasing after the ice cream truck though I hate ice cream.

Had a hitch hack wait for about an hour til my brother came to take us home, I had to miss the last screening of Repunzel A tangled talein One Utama with John. As much as I hate Sunway Pyramid so much, we ended up there for a few hours with Michelle & Anusha. Later Shisha from Canai was carried out to Sinbad, it worked pretty well except where I felt terrible.


Awesome heels if they didn't cut my toe(coming from the Zebra plasters)




Monday, December 20, 2010
4 isn't a big deal of a badluck number for me.

My Economics & final paper for my SPM starts approximately in 3hours & I look and feel like shit. Hadn't had enough of sleep ever since SPM has started or ever since like forever. That's not the thing, my nose is being a bitch to me, I'm coming down with a cold. Despite the fact that I didn not study a single shit for today's paper and yet not feeling nervous about it, I'm pretty excited that this is all going to be over soon. Let me rephrase that, VERY excited. Red Bull has been saving my ass multiples time from falling asleep during my stay ups & during my paper, so I'mma put it to some rest after 4 evening.

So I'm almost done with high school, now what?

Life question, but I'll fuck that for now, will go back to that later. For now, all I can think of skinny dipping & running around the park, topless. Fuck, please study why can't the fuck I study. Swear to god this is not helping at all, but I found this really lame survey & I think I will actually waste my time on it.

1. Last beverage: Red Bull.

2. Last phone call: John Lim.

3. Last text message: John Lim.

4. Last song you listened to:Ears to see & Eyes to hear by Sleeping with Sirens (I know I'm so gay)

5. Last time you cried: A night ago.

have you ever…

6. Dated someone twice: Yes.

7. Been cheated on: Holyshit, yes. haha

8. Kissed someone & regretted it: Yes.

9. Lost someone special: Lost in general terms, yes. Lost as in someone died, yes.

10. Been depressed: Every fucking day.

11. Been drunk and threw up: Yeah, I slept on it too.

first 3 favourite colours…

12. blue

13. purple

14. turqoise

this year have you…

15. Made a new friend: Mhmm.

16. Fallen out of love: Yes.

17. Laughed until you cried: Yes, laughed til I peed as well.

18. Met someone who changed you: Yes.

19. Found out who your true friends were: Not really.

20. Found out someone was talking about you: Yes?

21. Kissed anyone on your friend’s list: Yes.

personal…

22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life? Okay, which friend list are we talking about here?

23. How many kids do you want to have? Ask me again when I'm 27

24. Do you have any pets?: Yes my mixed breed of Shitzu & Cocker Spaniel <3333

25. Do you want to change your name?: No.

26. What did you do for your last birthday: Family Dinner @ TGIF. Pyramid w some mind fucking awesome people. Damansara w the ex. Making out at the dentist toilet. Ho yeah, hahaha!

27. what time did you wake up today: 7:30AM

28. What were you doing at midnight last night: Trying to read my economics, trying to fall asleep, either way.

29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: 4:00Evening.

30. Last time you saw your Mother: an hour ago?

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life?: Myself.

32.What song are you listening to now?: No wow by The kills

33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom?: Is Tommy considered?

34. What’s getting on your nerves right now?: Economics paper.

36. Eye color? Look at my eyes, then tell me.

37. Relationship Status?: Taken?

38. Favorite book?: Book? Anything by James Frey.

39. Zodiac sign?: Capricorn

40. Do you have a crush on someone?: No.

42. Middle School: SMKSJ.

43. Colleges: Ask me next year.

44. Hair color: Brown/black? god knows.

45. Long or short: Long.

46. Height: 5’2.5

47. Found a new pet peeve? Neh.

48: What do you like about yourself?: WTF?!

49. Piercings?: 3 atm, getting my navel one back soon. neyhehehe :B

50. Tattoos? Ask me that next year.

51. Righty or lefty? Righty.

firsts…

52. First surgery?: Hehe never.

53. First piercing?: 5/6?

54. First best friend?: Brenda Teyew, LOL

55. First sport you joined?: Swimming. (I still can't swim btw)

56. First vacation?: Aussie babeyh.

57. Sleeping? no.

58. On the Phone?: no.

59. Eating? no.

60. Drinking? Red Bull.

61. I’m about to?: Kill Rabin & then read my econs.

62. Listening to?: Pogo by Digitalism.

63. Waiting for?: 4evening

64. Want kids?: duh?

65. Get Married?: yes.

66. Career?: -

this or that?…

67. Lips or eyes: -

68. Hugs or kisses: -

69. Shorter or taller:Taller.

70. Older or Younger: Older.

71. Romantic or spontaneous: BOTH.

72. Nice hair or nice nails: HAIIIIIRRRR.

73. Sensitive or loud: haha, both.

74. Hook-up or relationship?: depends on my situation.

75. Trouble maker or hesitant: lol troublemaker.

have you ever…

76. Kissed a stranger: No.

77. Drank hard liquor: yeaah.

78. Lost glasses/contacts: yes

79. Danced in the rain: yep.

80. Broken someone’s heart: yes.

81. Had your own heart broken: yeah.

82. Won a bet: fuck yeah.

83. Turned someone down: yeah.

84. Cried when someone died: yes.

85. Fallen for a friend?: LULZ, YES.

do you believe in…

86. Yourself: occasionally.

87. Miracles: call me corny but yes.

88. Love at first sight: at times.

89. Heaven: yes.

90. Santa Claus: no.

91. Kiss on the first date: errrrr, yes?

92. Angels: yes.

truthful answers…

93. Done something terribly embarrassing?: I'm the pinnhale of embarrassing, damnit.

94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time?: nah.

95. Did you sing today?: Suprisingly, no. not even in the showers wtf.

96. Ever cheated on somebody?: yes.

97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go? 16NOV :D

98. Do you like bananas?: lovee.

99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: yes, but at the same time i want to.

100. Posting this as “100 truths” ?: No.



That was just.. lame. Aside from doing that, I was doing this:


rabinnnn says:

*i dare youu to drink and goo for the paper AHHA

Irene Cheen says:

*I wouldn't mind, but I had too much consum of Red Bull, I think I'll just die on my paper

*if I drank alcohol

*HAHA

rabinnnn says:

*HAHA

*You people are addicts wei

Irene Cheen says:

*to what?

rabinnnn says:

*Thank goodness you aren't boys

*red bull

*:)

Irene Cheen says:

*haha why? Energy to put the girl on bed?

*AHAHAH

rabinnnn says:

*Hahah its badddd for their fatherhoood parts

*:)

*You horny child la:)

Irene Cheen says:

*fatherhoods, wtf Rabin hahahaha

rabinnnn says:

*Yes la

Irene Cheen says:

*Isn't that's why I'm a sex god to you?

*haha

rabinnnn says:

*its either it makes it smalll

*or something

*Haha prove your sex god la :)

*fail blow job-er

*Omg i think lalit slept off on his pc table

*:S

Irene Cheen says:

*why? Haha fuck you I'll make a porno for you

rabinnnn says:

*Hahah with who in it eh :P

Irene Cheen says:

*I'll make it a groupsex porno

*how's that?

*Haha

rabinnnn says:

*Haha i dont like groupsex pornos :S

*not real

Irene Cheen says:

*Hahaha dude I'm just kidding, you don't even get to watch a porno by me, I'll just do it on your kitchen table

rabinnnn says:

*HAHAHAHHA

*Omg irene gulable right youu

*obviously i know your ainn gonna make a pornnoo

*you got nooob balls(guts) to do so:)

Irene Cheen says:

*FUCKKKYOUU

*hahaha

*I am suppose to be studying and not having chats about porno with you

*haha






Saturday, December 18, 2010
You're doing fine,

I don't know what is there I can do to please anyone of you so sue me for that. I'm just so fucking tired of having to put up with the attitude you(s) give me and I hurt the people around me by treating them like my punching bag, they don't deserve any of it or so do I.

In every words, advice- whatever I 'ought to give it to you, you just tend to look down to it. Then you go all over back to square one. I can't help you if you don't help yourself but let me tell you one thing, you should just stop treating me for that meanwhile and think about it, who's worth the time and who's not. I fucking hate the fact where I play nice to people whom I care about all the time and I gain a zero appreciation for what I've done. So tell me again, why am I even wasting my time?

Stop treating me like a dog, yeah thanks. I'm too stupid to notice it, but fuck- if you're worth my time, tell me why.




Friday, December 17, 2010
For the first time




Irn Chn: im scratching my leg
AnushaN: my baby. i wish i was there to put some lotion for you
Irn Chn: which part? :P
AnushaN: wherever u want baby (:
AnushaN: I'll give you a soft massage
AnushaN: and satisfy you (:
Irn Chn: oh really? *horny grins
Irn Chn: I want it on your kitchen counter
AnushaN: if right now, we're in the same room
AnushaN: I swear I would rape you
Irn Chn: DIE BALLS
AnushaN: hahaha sometimes i wish i was a freaking lesbian
Irn Chn: If we were, you'd be the first I'd like to fuck

That is my friend, Anusha.




Awesome purchase for only 15MYR. When it was raining so heavy, I could hardly sit outside my mom's window like I always do when it's pouring. So then I decided to s
nap random shots from the window, after two shots from my soon-to-drive-me-insane-because-you-suck camera ran out of batteries. So pretty much I was there to rot my ass off.

Finally finished a proper movie today in a cinema since, I could hardly even remember when. The Social Network, was definitely my type of movie. Go suck balls to whom thought it suck, maybe your brain cells don't function well enough for such good movie like that. I've always fancy Jesse Eisenberg since he drove me up the wall in Adventureland. Pretty boys like Andrew Garfiled don't turn me on either way.

You know that feeling where when you can't have the things you want or perhaps the people you love to love you back, you instantly just feel like stepping out to a 100 floors building and jump down wishing you were never brought to this earth in the first place? And when you have all of those, you forget & you lose your way, you give up on the reason before it all even started, you don't appreciate what they've given you & you treat them like a victim and you're the predator & sometimes even blamming them for your mistakes? well,

This is how I feel right now. I'm that fucking predator. Slap me sometimes that I behave the way I don't usually do. Please do, real hard.

2hours after Literature. We pretty much bring badluck along with us wherever we go, shit or in our word, fun happens whenever we triplets combine. How'd you like getting your door knocked down because you were trap in your room?




Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Yesterday.
JOHN LIM SOON LEK,

You'd most probably reading this or maybe not, but lets just hope you do then because I would like to tell you that you're so amazing. Too amazing for me to even describe them in words. Just from that morning text I get from you, no matter how sad I am the night before, that morning text always gets me to put a smile on my face. I love you & I like you to stay, for that I wouldn't mind chaining you to my bed- literally.

Finally new skinnies again, happy I got pretty much the things I wanted today at a very reasonable price. I need to get myself a new camera and pronto, cause pictures from my phone are just as fugly as the look of the landlady that live across the street. Even my 10th attempt of editing it to make it look nicer, it doesn't. I'd rather not upload any of it. WHERE THE FUCK IS MY OLD DIGITAL CAMERA, show yourself and it's time for me to dust you off.





Monday, December 13, 2010
Sin city




The awesome munch I had by John, considering I never like Gingerbreads, this tasted a slight difference from the rest. The start of a week has been rather shitty to me, or either way I still hate my surrounding pretty much most of the time. The fact I have to put up a happy face just to make it through the day.

Then the other part of me would want Honeyrose sticks in my mouth just to smoke something off my mind. too many shit, too much time to pay attention on it gets me on a rough sketch.

All the time, I really wish I am not the girl I am. Then I try to not be her anymore, it's rather hard to have every bad to encounter you. Makes me feel like I'm a big real shit person in general. I would like to sit and think what's so bad about me, really? When I have people who loves me so much, I'd think of what is worth to like about me? I'm nothing but all bad. Truth is, maybe I'm just so damn tired of being the bad aura. I'm full of shit. I'd like to be like once in a blue moon, at least. I'd like to hide under a rock as well. Out from this world, just to feel better being alone.







Sunday, December 12, 2010
Winter on Summer




Having the hardest time trying to focus for the last paper I have left to sit for SPM. I can't wait for SPM to be over because school it just has been bringing me down. The minority of amazing people I've met do not outweigh the majority. I've been telling myself to work hard for a little while more in order to make my parents proud, to lead a successful life, but..

Who the hell am I kidding? Here's my winter-summer list which I'd like to call it The A-List

  1. Skinny dipping
  2. Trying to down alcohol that doesn't cost more than 10RM
  3. Puke off the taste of cheap alcohol and down alcohol that cost more than 10RM
  4. Shishaaaaaa
  5. Mamak til 4am
  6. Swimming @ midnight
  7. Run in a park/streets topless at midnight
  8. Prom
  9. Play wii/guitar hero in our underwear
  10. 5am phone calls sober or high
  11. Karaoke w the bunch in the small karaoke box
  12. Dressing up for Christmas
  13. SPA
  14. Go to movies
  15. Late night shisha/pool/cards at JJ's condo
  16. Midnight MCD
  17. Disney movie marathon
  18. shopping
  19. Christmas shopping
  20. random roadtrips
  21. Rape Anusha and make instant prono
  22. tattoo
  23. Bring John to do my navel piercing
  24. burn books
  25. Play with Trevor :D
  26. London?
  27. learn an instruments, for real
  28. driving license
  29. do something that doesn't involve intoxicating
  30. write songs
  31. spitting on someone in a shopping mall at the highest level til the bottom
  32. Thailand :D
  33. train my dog (such a joke)
  34. "accidentally" push Intan into the fish pond, AGAIN
  35. work?
  36. gigs
  37. "accidentally" push John under a mistletoe :D
  38. throw popcorn at someone
  39. babysit Kyle
  40. horror movies
  41. re=watch my favorite movies like factory girl but in my underwear
  42. Star list w Rose (dont get me started
  43. take random photos
  44. PD
  45. Play twister/uno stacko high
  46. clubbing
  47. Amazing Race Audition with Yasmin
  48. Fucking each other's mind up ; Balqis, Natasha, Sheera, Yasmin
  49. Catching up with people I always dont get the chance to
  50. Swimming lessons with Balqis, Yasmin





Tuesday, December 7, 2010

Anyone, care to lend me the movie The Fox and The Hound?
Yes, desperately dying to watch this movie.

Such a sexy fox, yum. 2 more papers and I'm out to party with my glittered eyes & get high on techno music(ew not really)