The awesome munch I had by John, considering I never like Gingerbreads, this tasted a slight difference from the rest. The start of a week has been rather shitty to me, or either way I still hate my surrounding pretty much most of the time. The fact I have to put up a happy face just to make it through the day.

Then the other part of me would want Honeyrose sticks in my mouth just to smoke something off my mind. too many shit, too much time to pay attention on it gets me on a rough sketch.

All the time, I really wish I am not the girl I am. Then I try to not be her anymore, it's rather hard to have every bad to encounter you. Makes me feel like I'm a big real shit person in general. I would like to sit and think what's so bad about me, really? When I have people who loves me so much, I'd think of what is worth to like about me? I'm nothing but all bad. Truth is, maybe I'm just so damn tired of being the bad aura. I'm full of shit. I'd like to be like once in a blue moon, at least. I'd like to hide under a rock as well. Out from this world, just to feel better being alone.