Usually it doesn't make me go speechless to answer a lifetime question but,

Someone asked me one of the lifetime quetion today, "are you sure what you are doing is all worth it. I want you to think about it what do you feel like", for the first time in a very very long time- I was speechless to that question. I stared at those words, not sure if I should be afraid that I couldn't answer it or is it because I was afraid to answer. Everything you've worked through your life to avoid it but never knew, all you did was only running into it deeper and deeper. Everything that invited you in, it was too late because you're trap, sucked in by a blackhole. You want to go back to square one, learn the equations & don't make any mistakes from it- but are you sure you won't make any mistakes this time? Once a tiny equation is made wrong, you're right back where you are right now. Now isn't that scary? one wrong move, your life flips upside down.

I am definitely gonna think twice on that question again, maybe more than twice. It might be an easy quetion to certain situation but- I'm playing on the safe side this time, really. Gees! What do you feel when someone ask you a lifetime question?

(I'm gonna go survey this around, ngeh ngeh ngeh)